This is my 500 for 1/5/2018

 

Is this a race to the finish or am I deluding myself, yet again? I am directly responsible for more than more direction in life… I am responsible for the race that I participate in.. do I jump into the mix or do I sit one out… do I engage in the adversity of the daily strife or do I close my eyes and pretend not to hear anything.

 

I think that this has a lot to do with making sure that I am climbing the right mountain.

 

For me. For myself. There are so many different races that I could join… so many different paths that I could go down… that I feel that

 

half the battle is really just finding something that I will be happy accomplishing…

 

something that I will feel a burning, sustained desire to fight for first place.. no matter what… no matter what stands in my way. I think that it took me a long time to find the starting line for the race that I wanted to be a part of.

 

I can breathe again.

 

A deep sigh of relief washes over. A heavy burden has been lifted because, for the longest time, I wasn’t even sure that I would find a race that resonated with me. I was at a breaking point… the point where the voices of “just choose something” started to win out… I started to feel as if I had no chance of ever finding anything and was on the verge of breaking down and pursuing a path that was not my own.

To be fair, I have walked down paths that were not my own in the past, but I had never given up hope that there might be a path that would resonate with me as much as the one does that I am on right now. I have to keep moving forward. I have to keep pressing myself for improvement… to keep pressing forward for answers to the questions that are on my mind as they relate to my purpose in life.

This is a sense of inspiration that is sustained. It might not always be a fiery mindset that is burning brighter than the brightest star… but it fluctuates at a frequency that I have never been aware was possible.

 

Rounding the turn I can see the finish line stretched out in front of me.

 

A healthy lead but the focus is on the best I can do. This is not the time to relax into my laziness. This is the time to double-down and to press my belief system through the discomfort. We are all in this together and my hope is that by breaking through my own uneasiness, I will inspire you to do the same. There is so much to be gained from living a life that you can personally be proud of… a life that you choose for yourself. Get to know yourself. Love yourself. Live this life as if it were your last.

2 thoughts on “This is my 500 for 1/5/2018

  1. I don’t have much to say, but I enjoyed reading this one. I’m not real certain as to why. Maybe it is hearing you found a better path and continue to push forward when your laziness strikes.

    1. I’m not sure I fully understand it either, haha! I think I just recognize that helping myself is the best way to help others…. so learning what it is that I need to do to help myself… pursuing the absolute top priorities in my life that will further my career or my own sense of fulfillment will be essential in this process. Thank you for your comment! I hope you are able to narrow down your top priorities!

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